fall color

Crap - this is the 3rd time I've tried to post a blog and the cyber world ate it. These are a few of my favorites from this weekend. I'll write more later.

I forget to remember or remember to forget...what was that again?

Quote: If you haven't any charity in your heart, you have the worst kind of heart trouble. ~~ Bob Hope
Gratitude: The ability to love deeply and unconditionally
Feeling: Sleepy and tired
Weather: Could the day get any prettier? I think not.
Song: Chasing Pavements - Adele
Photograph: An old one since I haven't been able to go shoot in three weeks!

The mind is willing but the body is so weak. You know what I suck at? Following through on really good intentions. I bought Christmas cards last year with the full intentions of mailing them out - they sit unaddressed on my home desk. I have photographs I've blown up into presents and they sit on my desk at work. My friend Lisa loves red - I have an old coach purse boxed and ready to be mailed to her for the last two years. I remember birthdays, but forget to call or buy presents in time. I have e-mails in my inbox that I'm now too embarrassed to answer as days ticked by before I could frame a proper, thoughtful and well written response.

I remember now that I promised my nephews some cash for Halloween and forgot to go by the bank. *sigh* I suck.

sipping life

I took myself to lunch today. I sat in a little bistro, my favorite bistro actually, and listened to Edith Pilaf as I lingered over rustic soup and a perfectly done sandwich. I wore sunglasses and closed my eyes. I was almost in the countryside of France as I ate wild yeast sourdough bread. The sun kissed my face as I almost forgot that my chest is rattling and I am beginning to hate the sound of my breathing.

A vacation in an hour - sipping tea sweetened with dark brown sugar. I nibble shortbread back at my desk and I am satisfied for today. Coffee is waiting for me in the kitchen, my work is spread before me waiting for attention. The pace is slow and languid and I move at the speed of a turtle. I conquer nothing but everything. I turn and sigh.

Overhead the vent is making rhymthic rattles as the ballast in the light vibrates from the throes of the hvac unit. One day Tim will find me standing on my desk beating the light fixture with a baseball bat and my respite is shattered. Then I hear voices in the hallway - lunch is over, done, beaten to a pulp. Goodbye France, Goodbye Jorge.....hello hell.

tuesdays

Quote: I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character. ~~ M. L. King
Gratitude: Dr. Pepper
Feeling: Maintaining an even strain.
Weather: I wish I could take the day and wrap it in a yellow cloth to save it for a rainy gray day in February.
Song: Under the Bridge - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Photograph:

It does a heart good to see people standing in line to vote - to be a "part of history"....however, why doesn't everyone know they could be a part of history every day? Why can't people be this empassioned about issues before we fall into an abyss?

Seriously, Christmas music already?

Quote: All serious daring starts from within. ~~ Eudora Welty
Gratitude: Understanding bosses - seriously.
Feeling: Better every day. Still coughing but at least it's loosened up.
Weather: Glorious. Fall is the perfect time of year.
Song: You'll Think of Me - Keith Urban
Photograph:

God love my sister - she puts up with so much from me. Of course I went to Montgomery sick this weekend as it was my darling ME's birthday. (See above, yes, adorable I know) I'm glad I went. I have been seriously sick for about three weeks now - never stopping to take the time to take care of myself. You know it's bad when my nephew asks from the other room if I had left because he hasn't heard me cough in a while.

If I get a bit mauldin in the next couple of weeks, most of you will know why. It's the first anniversary of my mother's death and, close family as we are, we all miss her so very much.

In the past I fussed that Thanksgiving gets overlooked in the Christmas rush...but, the day after Halloween they started playing Christmas music on the cable channels. Soon, I will be compiling my christmas list on my July birthday weekend. It's insane. And yes, I know - the sellers are in a panic about what disaster Christmas sales will be - but I don't think the solution is to make me hate the sales even more by starting early.

If I don't get outside soon - besides driving to and from places, I'm going to go crazy.