April 22, 2009
earth day, flea markets, thrifting...and other semi off-the-cuff thoughts.
I had lots of thoughts about Earth Day this year - being unemployed allows you to do things like have deep thoughts of things that matter. I have so much more time on my hands than I used to when I ran solid all day and collapsed in a general heap of mushbrains at night. I thought I would re-read "Walden" because Thoreau is a hero of simplicity and keeping the earth well. But...I didn't. I did though re-read the "Spring" essay and found comfort in his thought about rain...the rain we've had so much of so far. The rain that I will plead for in the summer that is coming. I need to get dressed and go buy the flowers I promised myself to plant today. Funny, I can't remember if I have worn these two days or three days. (just kidding)
There is this magazine I found, "100 ideas - Flea Market Style" and I wonder - just where are these fabulous flea markets where they are finding these fabulous things? My bloggy friend, Mary, finds these great things too. I find them...but boy do they want me to pay for them. So not in my budget right now. But I love looking at the pretties. Maybe I will wander over to my favorite place today and see if there is anything new. Romantic Homes also has an article called "Thrift Shop Chic" - it seems that shabby chic has evolved (or is it devolved) into thrift shop and repurposed. Lord help me if I start haunting garage sales on the weekend. The next thing you know I will have a beehive and will try on clothes right there at the sale. Please don't let me haggle over a dime item. You would have permission to slap me on the spot.
Photography wise I feel so stagnant. I do - I have driven on adventures and have found a few things. Don't tell my sister....but Montgomery really sucks wind as a photography town. I find myself forced to photograph the same flowers over and over again and I'm sorry but I just can't get much more creative with tulips, daisies or the like without pulling my hair out. I refuse to start photographing things just to be able to take pictures everyday (like recommended by all the mentors around.) I've got to get the mojo back.
This week I'm dealing with a lot of anger and repressed feelings about unemployment and the fear that me, as well as countless others will never recover from this culumination of the "me" generation resulting in this depression/recession - whatever you call it. I'm generally a "glass half full" person who works hard to finish filling the glass...but, I am drowning this week. I struggled with writing this paragraph because it seems so "look at the poor, pathetic, petrified" girl - feel sorry for her. But, I can't not tell you the truth about the situation. So, bear with me if you will. I know I'm not the only person dealing with this....and I know there are others in much worse shape. So, believe me - I will "buck up" and struggle on. That is part of why I posted the previous blog, to remind myself there are small bits of happy all along.
On the other hand...I'm very excited about the etsy shop. Things are thrilling there for me and I get so excited when I make a small sale. As always when things like that happen, I channel Sally Fields. To celebrate maybe I can stop by the farmer's market for some fresh strawberries since they are in season. After all, I should practice what I preach and take pleasure in the small things to bolster my spirits.
Now I feel like I should apologize for being whiny - that's what being raised politely will do for you, right? We may throw our tantrums politely and apologize ever so sweetly after for displaying that nasty bit of emotion. I think that's why I laugh so much at children because they put it all out there and don't really care if you saw it or not. But, ... I think it's good to let a vulnerable side show. It reminds us that we are human and not superheroes that can tough out anything.
scribbled by Char