...and look out at the world. In six weeks it's gotten greener, brighter and more lush. And so has my life in so many ways. The evolution of Charlane is happening - that paradigm shift, the slight altering of perceptions and realities and yes, even acceptance of the circumstances.
I remain a big believer in choosing our happiness. A friend's blog today talked about that changing of perceptions and how difficult it is to achieve. I know that - if just adjusting the attitude was the thing - I would be very skinny, Clive Owens would be my boyfriend, and I would be a world renown photographer traveling the world taking amazing, stupendous, fantastic photographs. okay, okay, okay - maybe the shots would only be amazing - I should be humble after all or I would never get that Pulitzer. (hahaha - kidding!!!)
But yes - I think we have to put it out there - our wishes. And we have to work to achieve them and with that work comes the perception of happiness. That finding of small things in the mundane, the everyday, the repetition to make us happy. Am I happy that I remain unemployed for what is the beginning of a fourth month? NO. But...am I happy here...with family, with this gorgeous light...with love. Oh yes...yes, and again yes. The other stuff is just window dressing when I can reach in and find that nugget to cling to.
I can be skinnier - that is my decision. I can have a Clive wannabe boyfriend if I really wanted that (I imagine that I probably wouldn't want the real Clive even when presented with the opportunity *grin*). As far as the world renown photographer - *chuckle* I'm working on that too. Aren't you working on being world renown at something you love? Think about that - are you building that dock so your ship can come in? Or are you just whining about it never happening?
A dear friend IM'ed me this morning - she is working hard on training for a triathlon. We met about ten years ago when she was still in collage - since then she has grown so much and has worked hard to change her reality. Today she said "...my new thoughts are: I'm going to push it as hard as I can. If I lose weight, fine. If guys start hitting on me, who cares. Not me. This is about seeing what I can do."
I find that so inspirational - isn't that the essence of life? Finding out what you can do?