June 23, 2010

the impermanence of time...along with other observations

 the clock ticking strangely sounds like the empty wasteland of my brain - echoing and darting around corners seeking information that seems to have disappeared.  yesterday was a nephew's birthday (12th) and a nephew's trimuph (he got his driving permit).  it blows my mind that one is old enough to shave and one is on the edge of teendom.  days like this (no matter what van morrison says) always make me flinch in the relentless onslaught of time.  i blinked first time...can you vere off now?  maybe for just a wee bit.  this breakneck speed you've acquired makes me feel as though i can't breathe. 
 
time never listens to me. as i suspect, it doesn't listen to you either. it never listens to my suggestions of bending, stretching, stopping and starting - it just keeps going and going. wrapped up in this is the realization that my knees creak now every day and i wake up at the time where i used to think it was cool to fall asleep. but time is used to my curses and i remind myself not to waste time as there are no brakes on this railroad car.

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klutz move of the day: yesterday, while finally hanging pictures that have sat on my office floor for a couple months, i knocked my camera off my desk and killed my 50mm.  i was dismayed but then was thankful that i now have a job where i can replace it (a few months ago i would have just cried).  so, hopefully the new one will arrive this afternoon so i can shoot this weekend.  i've settled on two or three ideas that i hope work out...but i need a model.  *crosses fingers* if so, you may see the darker side of charlane. 

random book passage of the day:  "that friday made the last of our fine days, for a month.  in the evening, the weather broke; the wind shifted from south to northeast, and brought rain, first, then sleet, and snow.  on the morrow one could hardly imagine that there had been three weeks of summer; the primroses and crocuses were hidded under the wintery drifts; the larks were silent, the young leaves of the early trees were smitten and blackened -- and dreary, and chill, and dismal that morrow did creep over!"  (bonus points for right guesses about the author {without googling}.  hint:  sir lawrence)

current obsession:  werther's creamy caramel filled chocolates

today on my ipod:  chain of fools (eva cassidy cover), dreams (brandi carlisle), imagine (john lennon), trouble (ray lamontagne), the man that sold the world (nirvana), and one (u2)....of course among others.




31 comments:

  1. I love everything about this post. The song list at the end, the veiled threat that we may see the darker side of Charlane, the fact that you're able to get a new lens and not having to cry over it and especially this organically beautiful photograph of my favorite color: green.
    xo

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  2. time really doesn't listen to anyone...I wish it did...
    Sorry about your camera...but as you said...another is on the way...it was replacable!
    We just had a 5.5 earthquake here in Toronto...
    makes you wonder! Makes you think...
    HUGS to you my friend.
    CHar.x.

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  3. stop this train should be on your ipod. time didn't listen to john mayer, either

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  4. I love One... but I love the Mary J Blige version more than life itself!!!
    you're so inspiring to me so just remember that when you're imagining your brain to be an empty wasteland.. far from it my dear!

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  5. I hate it when my camera goes! I so need to think about getting a back up. In the past few months, it's seemed as though time was going at breakneck speed and it took awhile for my brain to catch up to all that was happening! Scary stuff.
    Brenda

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  6. Oh, that green is so lovely I want to inhale it or eat it or something. Sorry about your lens but glad you've got a new one coming.

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  7. Love the photo, It is crazy how time just keeps ticking away....Do they get their learners permits at twelve or did I misunderstand. lol. take care, glad you are well.

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  8. two different nephews! :) one turned 12 and one got his permit, he's 15

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  9. I so know what you mean. One of my nieces just turned 13. The little tot is now a teenager. I'm still not sure I believe it.

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  10. you are so darn right about time...it won't listen to anyone...especially us older guys!

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  11. you had me at hello....with your amazing words and beautiful photo....but holy cow, the fact that you are loving the werther's caramel filled chocolates, too.....are you sure we aren't related somehow ?

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  12. Time is really getting me, too. My niece, who I held when she was born, graduated a few weeks ago. My cousin who is MUCH younger than me is getting married this weekend. My daughter is eligible for her temps. My wee baby is three and a half, and I look in the mirror and I expect to see this cute teenager and I see someone much older! Where does it go?

    xo Erin

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  13. Time can certainly be an enemy or a friend...it's all in the perspective. Sorry about the camera, but so glad that you can replace it.

    Is that from Wuthering Heights?

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  14. My baby graduates from high school today, and I feel about a thousand years old... :)

    Have fun with the new 50mm. Love your playlist! And is that quote from Wuthering Heights?

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  15. yes, susan and mary get bonus smartygirl bonus points! it's the opening lines of chapter 11 of wuthering heights! :)

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  16. what an absolutely wonderful post. I like your additions at the bottom. and i'm with you on the time thing - just please slow down.

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  17. and btw, even with a job, i would have cried about the lens. but glad you have a new one coming in. can't wait to see what your shooting this weekend.

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  18. such beautiful words. beautiful and true about time.
    so glad you were able to get a new lens. did it arrive?
    xoxo

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  19. Oh no! I hope you get the new camera asap!

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  20. love, love, love this post. love your musings and a glimpse into your 'dailyness' (yes, i did just make up that word!). hope you enjoy breakin' in that new camera, friend. xx s

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  21. Oh no, 50mmm breakage!
    I am saying happy thoughts for new lenses xx

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  22. sorry about your camera...

    but anyway, you can now buy a replacement!

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  23. oh i need some of werther's caramel filled chocolates... now!

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  24. and as to time not listening to you, stop listening to its tick-tocks..just enjoy life taking pictures and eating cookies...

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  25. so sorry to hear about the camera, but i am glad a new one is on the way.

    and that imagine song gets me every time. it is pretty much perfect.

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  26. it was the lens only - not the camera. :) thanks you guys - you all are such great support.

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  27. Sent you an email...you're a winner! :)

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  28. Time has been haunting me a lot the past few months but I'm finally just stepping up and telling it, okay you're not going to stop but I'm not either {yet}. Glad you are getting another camera--hope you have a lot of fun with it over the weekend! And thank you for the

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  29. i have missed you ... your life sounds full of the ups and downs of each day ... time has a way with that

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  30. Love this photo!...Love your ipod list!...Love the fact that you can replace your 50mm!...Love Wuthering Heights! (altho I wouldn't have guessed without cheating:)...Love caramel filled chocolate!...

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i feel as if each comment was between us as we sat and sipped something warm....i love to hear what you're thinking.