March 9, 2011

tell me

it is a rainy day in alabama.  the kind of rain that makes you want to curl up in front of a fireplace with a mug of something warm and a good book.  and as you read the book you become sleepy and find yourself asleep, curled in the blanket - that deep, soul satisfying sleep - the kind where many beautiful dreams occur.

but, instead - i'm working.  and not the deep, soul satisfying work...but the kind that makes you want to kick curbs and curse because you're so pissed.  and being pissed doesn't really solve the problem - but it allows you to vent without expressing anger at the one (or two) people that have caused you to be in this predicament.  because that will not solve the problem any better than kicking the curb....and all you get are bruised toes and a bruised ego.  *sigh*

so i stare out my window and wonder why i wasn't born independently wealthy or some sort of nonsense.  because if i was, i would run off to paris, or tuscany, or timbuktu...or someplace really exotic, like...the moon.  and then i wouldn't have to deal with idiots...or...the idiots would be so different and intriguing that i wouldn't notice they were idiots.  and i wouldn't have to tell people that have worked hard and through no fault of their own, their contract is severed because some idiot didn't research law very well and i hired them thinking it was cool...but it wasn't really cool and now ...i have to end the contract and figure out how to pay them. 

tell me again why i wasn't born independently wealthy. 

26 comments:

  1. Yikes!! :-/ That is a predicament!!!

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  2. now that's a question I've been asking about myself for a long time...and then I wonder, why sort of problems do the independently wealthy have??

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  3. Don't take it so hard, I wasn't born independently wealthy either, although yesterday at work I felt exactly like you do today....actually I felt a little like that today also. I told them at work yesterday I had a shirt that says, "I see dumb people" and I've wondered where I could wear that and now I knew- I'd wear it at work...they laughed at me, not sure if they believed me or were scared or what...they just laughed...
    Hope tomorrow is better, weather wise and otherwise :-)
    Hugs from Norway

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  4. Life is sometimes full of crap(currently speaking about this week)...but we will overcome and get over it! Right now this bad weather isn't helping my feelings at all. I don't think I have ever wished away a week like I have this one. We must remember that good things far out weigh the bad!!
    Thanks for thinking of me!

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  5. ummmm.....hug ?
    xoxo
    love your open honesty here.....i really do !

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  6. sorry to hear that one person has caused such angst. Such a lovely photograph though.

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  7. Oh, you seem to have so much going on at that place! The people that really deserve it don't seem to be born independently wealthy...
    Brenda

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  8. Hi Char,
    So sorry this is going on in your life. Nothing I can say can help but at least you know you are being heard. I hope things work themselves out.
    leslie

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  9. Why indeed! I ask myself the same question...as well as the "why wasn't I born to an (insanely wealthy) family in warm and tropical Hawaii"? I'm sure a horrible mistake was made somewhere in the delivery process!

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  10. this is that time of year when i always get that "run away" itch. it's almost spring, but not quite, and i would give anything to drop it all, every obligation and responsibility, and got to amsterdam or wellington or belfast. the moon sounds good, too. :)

    sending happy thoughts your way!

    xo Alison

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  11. thanks you guys - bureaucracy at it's finest i tell you. hopefully we can get it worked out. i just hate telling someone that it is all good when i shouldn't have been given the green light.

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  12. OUCH...don't beat yourself up about it...I know from experience that by doing what I love doesn't make me rich...and some months I really worry how we're going to pull it together...BUT...I am doing what I love!
    BE STRONG!
    hugs
    CHar.x
    P.S. It's snowing wet snow...and it's cold and damp...I did curl up and fall asleep on the couch, not with a book though...just out of pure exhaustment!

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  13. Sounds like a truly bummer day. To put it mildly. I hope you get to have a nice rainy day when you can enjoy that rain and nice nap soon. Maybe you'll dream that you're independently wealthy and don't have work with the idiots. I've got my fingers crossed for you. :)

    Hugs, Sharon

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  14. Sometimes I just want to get out of town too. Love this photo and your words.

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  15. Awww honey...((hugs)). Ummm I know a guy who is a trust fund baby...let's just say he is the craziest, most f'd up person I know. And not crazy in a good way. OMG! *shaking head* the stories I could tell you.

    Knowing the value of working for something is a good thing. Yes it is!

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  16. While I can understand your frustration I have to say the way you wrote this just made me laugh. Sorry it's not going so well for you today. I hope tomorrow is better!

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  17. How crummy that you have to be the messenger for someone else's mistake. The good thing is that you care.

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  18. Your photo is so serene, calm and peaceful. I'm sorry you had such a hard day and yes, the idiots are everywhere as are the kind people. Hang in there. Start over tomorrow.
    nellie

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  19. What you need is a sugar daddy, diamond rings and a brand new caddy...just kidding!!!!
    I do hate that you have such a bad work experience
    I came from a job where an old man that thought he was a ladies man gave me a bad time..Just hateful,ya know. I don't for the life of me understand why people want to tear other people down..or say hateful things...I just thank God everyday that I don't have to work any more.
    We spend more time on our jobs than we spend at home, at least the hours we're awake.
    That's it, take a siesta after lunch!!!
    take it easy...

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  20. damn those idiots!
    i love you!
    xoxo

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  21. Better days ahead, I think we would be a whole different set of problems to cope with if we had lots of money. things will work out.,hugs to you.

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  22. I just bought a couple of lottery tickets....:)

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  23. Oh no, that's horrible! I'm so sorry you have to go through it ...

    I think that often myself ... if only I was independently wealthy. Of course, then I'd probably have a whole new set of problems. Sigh.

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  24. I have days like that too. I'm trying to learn how to be a designated agent (car titling)...our state doesn't hand out many instructions to non-independently wealthy women like me who took a job thinking....no problem I can do it...yeah right. I just hope none of the 20 applications I submitted today get rejected....okay, my rant is over....if I win the lottery, I'll share some of my millions with you. Then we'll both be wealthy and do whatever makes us happy...all the time. :)

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  25. Those idiots, I'm afraid they are everywhere (but maybe not on the moon). They always seem to pop up when I'm having the loveliest of moments, just to remind me of their presence. Cheers to dodging them as often as possible.

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  26. beautiful bloom among the bad vibes .. hang in their char

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i feel as if each comment was between us as we sat and sipped something warm....i love to hear what you're thinking.